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> What is (Broca) aphasia?

I’m made ton of progress. No doubt. Three of word of the hospital – my name, my parents and f#Ck! (+_+) till now. [I don’t know why. It has to do with “I’m f#Cked!”. Ha.] I can put more three words together and write them down on the computer or mobile phone. LoL

Here is my first part: Aphasia (Part 1) 

Here is my definition of aphasia:

My intelligence is in tact. So, I listen and understand no problem. (Perfect in English, but simple Korean only.) Speaking is my problem.  I have to relearn English and Korean. And it’s hard. I’m getting better, and it will take time.

DEFINITELY insanely amount of progress. I would say,  I am 10 – 20% (give or take) English speaking ability.

And maaaan, is it frustrating! YOU will be to.

 

Speaking

TIP!

Ask “yes” or “no” questions for the difficult ones.

Be patience and wait for a response.

I forget a lot of the words (from aphasia).

A LOT.

I go up and down in my English speaking, but definitely better. I’m definitely better than a person saying “walk, dog”, meaning “I will take the dog for a walk”. Although sometimes I’ll make the mistake usually when I’m tired, its late or something.

Things I can’t comprehend (AS OF YET):

• “Order” gets me. I mean, past, present and future. For example, timing: I have a problem of associating the timing of the event, for instance, past, present and future of the event when I speak even though I know it in my mind.

• Names and company names are so annoying!! Not only do I forget names (yes, previously (ㅠㅠ)), but aphasia doubly worse.

• • Math and numbers.
  • “What is that ‘word’?” takes a whole different meaning for those suffering from aphasia. Half of the time are not exactly what I mean to say… but you understand, so move on. But that’s just it… “Exactly”. I saw people can relate to what I’m saying, which is good, but “exactly” is lost on you… or not at all just a single image of “What is the #$%#!@ words!! ARGHH!!” and me going…“Think! Daaam you, think!” But no. That will do it and will have to think about it later.

• In the day, I am much better. Maybe it has to do with timing of the day… I don’t know.

It’s fruuuuuustratiiiiing and so angry! I just need some practice. Practice. Practice. Practice. Then who would I take to practice? And Korean and English don’t help either.

Yeap… Fiiigghhttiinngg!!!!

 

Speaking (to my friends)

I don’t think you understand how much aphasia can affected me — effect(S) me.

Usually among friends when I’m excited to talk or angry. When I’m in a debate, when I am heated up or happy. In my brain, it makes sense. Clearly worded out. But then when I say it: I get words mixed up all the time. The words that come out are not intended at all.

That’s when I take a minute and breathe (breathe is the key) and start again.

I get still confused about silly things, but I let them go… as long as you understand.

My words to out of weird, but I let it go… as long as you understand.

I didn’t say that, but you get the picture… as long as you understand.

It’s especially hard to hear you guys say, “Aphasia had nothing to do with it.” (Three times on multiple occasions… and THAT so isn’t it.)

YES! Aphasia has EVERYTHING to do with speaking! You don’t know because, well, you don’t have aphasia (its a good thing!). Its so upsets me, but I can’t say anything or it come out gobbligook. (<— that is a word I made up). It’s soooo frustrating.

“Upsets” and “…I let them go, as long as you understand” and “I can’t say anything”… its rolls like that on and on.

I want to think about it more in “aphasia private”. I’ll think about it – really think about it – and realize it and then conservation will move forward, or just move on and remember it for later (but that didn’t that help for right now!) <argh!>

Well, this is the perfect group to do it too (^^)… friends.

You are still friends? Right??  Oh maan, you’re in for it now. Hah.

 

Neuroplasticity/Neurology

The pathways in my brain are coming out. Definitely.

I feel it and match by a strange kind of sensation. Literally, the brain to rewiring itself. Yep, I said it was a strange concept.

It’s not comings out without… effort(?). That is the word for it. I get really tired after speak. Not tired (sleep tired), but out-of-breath, like, I’m doing a workout.

I have to think about that, but its the brain “rewiring” itself, which is a good thing.

 

Spelling and Words

Spelling is terrible (my standard). I usually write fine (stroke: expect for one-hand typing).  But I can spend this time spelling, for example, “definitely”. It will take 5 minutes – 20 minutes spelling it. SPELLING IT! This blog post took me a week to write.

“Auto-correct” is spelling is KEY. I don’t know what I would do without auto-correct. And with the one-hand lefty and I am right handed. (I’m working on it!).

So, one-handed left typing is where I am.

 

Here a list of the words I need to know (aphasia):

Definitions (Words I need know)

lifestyle disease
chronic disease
acute disease
infectious disease
Aristocratic
takes practice, but it’s never too late.
never give up
rewired the brain
Chronic disease
lifestyle change
nobody told us that we had to go back to
in case studies
neuroplasticity
brain rewiring
depreciation
nutritionist
Permanently
Insight
Capabilities
Conduction
Comprehension
Generate response
productive
peculiar
catharsis theories
specifically
Rejuvenate
Concentration
Any opportunities
Additional order
Electric nodes
Put it over there
inevitable
for discuss
Varies
Crux of the problem
“these are the times that try men’s soul”
Especially
Next
Can opener
Delay
Every time we come
sensitive
You don’t need to ask me?
None of the other stuff matters anymore
Money is Neutral
Familiar
I can eat whatever food you eat.
Need your opinion
instructor
You didn’t understand me.
It is the one thing I miss
Odds on the good
Stiff
Doesn’t matter
Narrow deal
Big picture
Important
Learn the craft
Good idea/thinking
relax!
Day before yesterday
Hard time
Hit me
Bother you.
workshop
Do you have time to meet tomorrow?
send an employee
Good enough
Percentage
Pivotal
outsider
Not important
Topical
Step ahead the game
sounds good, right?
when are you coming in?
driving me crazy
logistic
middle
overwatch
sufficient
hold on
in particular
in sequence
don’t try to borrow money from your ________
less then one week
become a dealer
Both
I think it would be hard
deal flow
batch
portfolio
positive
progression
encourage
I’m a staying ahead
reminded
Accuracy
Unapproachable.
Inappropriately
Assess
Task/Desk
Still getting better
Impossible
Imperishable
Perfume
Inferences
Airplane
Getting better
At the bottom
specifics
Potential returns
move quickly
leverage
operation
Closing
Mixes
mimics
Deck
citizenship
Analyst
Core
Elevator pitch
Proprietary
rush. urgent
fashion and tech is fickle. need to move now
Its impossible to get China government
positive
inquisitive
progression
encourage
I’m a staying ahead
For your access
Repetition. Reputation
Without any work
Payment method
Need it
Augmented
Certificate
Immersive
featured post
Appropriate
apart of it
Tough it out
Slowly
Cold call
Shoo-in
Long shot
Know it
(40s fall) Right in the middle of our lifespan
A long time ago
Stadium
You call the one we don’t know
I call the ones we know
Hot
Focus
Term
Prepare
Coworking space
Prevalence
Deposit is coming in
Cover it
Expense
Operation
Because
support
insurance
stroke
borrow
time
requesting time
collateral debt
office
Document
stock offer
offering the deal
equity
i’m offering stock
Compounded interest
I’m mega-mega-slow, and so you’re so fast/urgent.
I’m working on it.
practice.

…

(partial list)

(Google Keep is amazing.)

The list goes on. It goes on and on and on… it’s tiring.

But I got to say, “Fiigghhttinngg!!!” (maan, I say that a lot.)

Apps

For my aphasia, I got:

• Dictionary/Thesaurus
• Naver dictionary (Korean words)
• English Idioms and Phrases (Boy, do I need it! So, don’t complain that I will reference old stuff.)
• That’s it. Do you have any recommendation?

 

Conclusions(?)

No conclusion as of yet.

Aphasia or stroke? Hmmm. That’s a tough one, but I’ll take stroke anytime over aphasia. I have to live with aphasia during a lifetime.

Wait a minute… LIFETIME? < *shiver* >

You don’t think it will go away automatically? I’ll have to think about that one. That’s 260 years (lifetime)!
(I changed from 110 years… 150 years… to 300 years!  (^-^))

No. I will keeps on pushing, and pushing to the rest of my life!

Fiiigghhtttiinnggg!!  ROWRRRRR!!!!!

 

< end … until Part 3 >